my GUARDIAN ANGEL...

my ANGEL 'stuffy' was the most wonderful pet i ever had........first time he came to our house was when he was 24 days old............he came to our home on august 29th(i just can't forget that day)........i couldn't be more happy than ever......'i got a brother'..........you ppl out there might think me crazy........doggy....a brother??but yea........that was the first impression i got when i saw him........i didn't feel i got a doggy........i felt i had got a brother........he was my best friend.......my ANGEL......he came to our house when i was lonely and didn't have much friends..........GOD has sent me a GUARDIAN ANGEL.....he sent him to me to guard me.......to take care of me........to make me happy........

he used to miss his mamma first and used to cry all night for her.....but gradually we were his family........my mamma was his mamma,my papa his papa and me his proud sis :-)......he was a kid when he came...just 24 days old......didn't know how to walk ,eat,sit,etc.........and gradually there came a day when he ran faster than me :-)))))

i saw him grow up year by year......day by day..........minute by minute......second by second.......only thing i didn't see was his death :-(........i wish i were there with him in his last minutes.........i was in hyderabad.......happily married and settled when on june 20th early morning he had expired.........he bled profusely the last night :-(.........mom didn't know how to break me this news the next morning.........i cried like hell..........i felt as if i had lost a part of me........my husband didn't know how to console me.........i didn't know how to console myself..........my husband took me to goa so that i could forget what has happend........but i couldn't.........i got the feeling we get if our brother/sister or child dies.........i was damn heartbroken that day..........i was angry with GOD for taking him away from me......he snatched him from me......when he had answered my prayers when i was lonely and gave me a companion.......he couldn't take him away so suddenly........i was angry with GOD for making him take so much pain the day before he dies.........he was bleeding the whole night!!!it was not fair.......

well we can't get him back...........that's for sure...........but the only thing i pray for him is wherever he is.........i prayed that his soul rests in peace.........i know that he might not be there in person with me today........but he is and always will be my GUARDIAN ANGEL........

(we miss u a lot stuffy......wish their was somethin we could do to bring you back.........)

Killing Unborn Angels

look at dis baby........isn't it beautiful..........it is in the place it feels most safe in........it's mother's womb........but people now-a-days are killing babies in the place they feel most secrued.......they are getting aborted.......people say the term is abortion........not killing.......but vat does abortion mean??isn't it killing an unborn baby??even if it is not born it does has life.......a secured life(it thinks!!) in it's mother's womb.......isn't it sinful ot kill a baby??an innocent being???

i was blind till today..........was talking only about female foeticide.......suddenly realised that not only female babies..........even male babies are killed too............people get aborted mainly due to unwanted pregnancies.........pregnancies before marriage..........or after.....people create certain plans even to have a baby.........they want to 'settle down' before having a baby........a baby is a proof........a sign of two peoples love........it is not supposed to be planned.........it should just happen..........

i don't say that when you are not ready for a baby you should have one.......but still if by chance the lady gets pregnant......have the baby.........donot kill it.........i don't know how the lady even agress to kill the baby..........it is a part of her and her partner.......it grows inside her for 9 months before it comes out.......a pain a woman feels during delivery is all gone when she sees her baby..........her life......how can such an angel be considered a barrier to your career and life???how can it be killed so brutally???

my only plead is if you are not ready for a baby take preventive measures......don't get pregnant and kills the baby brutally........the baby does not want to die in the place which is most secured to it.........it feels degected and sad when you do that.........even if you kill that baby .......later some day when you are 'ready' you will have babies.........it will feel sad when it will see the other babies of yours from heaven........it will miss you........it will crave for your love.......
i know this generation does not care a damn about getting aborted.........it has become common......but think once before you kill the angel.....

ma MOM......ma PAPA......

MOM........one of the most wonderful phrases in the world...........she is the one who keeps us secured and safe for 9 months in her stomach even though we thank her by giving her morning sicknesses and mood swings........we thank her even more by kicking her.......even though we do this she feels sooooooooo happy.......why?she is the only one who understands us without us speaking out.....when we kick her before we are born she understands that we wanna get out soon........

PAPA........one more wonderful phrase......after we are born they name us.......they nurtures our delicate body......they loves us unconditionally........they loves us despite however we look.......they are the ones who cry for us when we get sick or are sad........they laugh with us and are happy when we are happy.....now we thank them by being cranky and acting like spoilt brats.......we thank them by crying a lot.....still they love us for what we are.........

we enter into adoloscence........whatever we are today is because of them......they warn us of certain kind of boys and girls and ask us to stay away from them.......they asks us to study well.........we thank them by talking to such kind of boys and girls they asked us not to mingle with.......we thank them by showing our mood swings at them and yelling at them when they tries to correct us......we thank them by bunking school or collage....but when the kind of boy or girl they have warned us about betray us......they don't have the 'i told u so' look on their face.........all they have is love......love.......and more love......

they suggests us for taking a certain subject and eventually take up a certain job.......we thank them by taking up a subject and eventually a job we like......still they love us and we thank them by being busy with our friends........collage and eventually work that we do not talk to them atleast an hour a day........they suggest us to marry a certain guy or girl......we thank them by marrying someone of our 'choice' whether they like it or not.......we thank them by being sooooooooo busy with our hubby or wife that we donot meet them or call them atleast one in a month.......

we might be happy with what we had done and with what we are doing right now.......we might be having a good job and be leading a happily married life........but instead of blindly regretting their wishes because we liked something else.......did we ever try to pursuade her and tell them what we like?did we ever try to make them understand how you wanted them to see you.......we could have done that each time we yelled and fought with her.......they understood what we wanted even before we could speak.......we can speak now......we could have told them.....don't you feel guilty for this??

i donno about you all out there.......but i am feeling guilty for whatever i have done against their wishes till today.......i was born after 9 years of ma parents marriage with a lot of difficulty........i know how much i hurted them before i was born and even after i was born.......for all the love ma parents gave me i thanked them by doing what i like........never cared about what they want......i still see the same love in their eyes even after i have done all these......M SORRY MAMMA PAPA.......say sorry to your parents 2 if u do feel guilty and sad........it is never too late 2 say sorry........they still love u and u can still see that love in their eyes........